Look who's 1 month today

And this is what I do most of the time.

And this is what I think about it.

But my mom and dad still love me!

Mom loves:

my dimple, the way my chin quivers when I cry,

pretty long eyelashes, cute noises i make, that

I calm down when daddy sings to me, tiny little

fingers, and tiny little toes, soft skin, the way I

smell after my bath and lotion, pretty blue eyes,

all my beautiful hair, the way i hold her hand

while I eat, when I do "little lips", how I don't

mind being patient when my big sisters want to

hold me, cuddling in bed with me, being snuggly

on the couch while eating, how my head bobbles

back and forth and up and down when I am being

burped, of course, my cute chubby cheeks, how I

can be content on the floor for a bit, and most of

all just having me in her life in general!!! I know,

I'm sooooo loved!

Sierra's Birth Story

Just wanted to jot down some of the goings on of that day before the memories fade away.

It was a nerve wracking evening before. We took the girls to James' mom's to stay with her for the next few days. I was a mess cause I couldn't believe Autumn was not going to be my baby girl anymore after the next day. She was just such a fun and easy baby. It was weird to just drop them off and say "okay tomorrow we're going to go have the baby and we'll see you with the new baby sister tomorrow".

I didn't sleep too well that night. I knew the hospital would be calling as early as 5:30 a.m. I woke up a few times in the night, and then again at 5:22 a.m. Of course they didn't call til 6:00. It was so funny how we just sat up in bed and looked at each other when the phone rang. It was TIME!!!!

Finally we got to the hospital at about 6:45 a.m. We got checked in and I got all hooked up to the monitors. It was about 8:30 when they started the pitocin. I was handling the contractions pretty well until about 9:30 when my water broke. At first, I wasn't sure that was what it was, and then I pretty much figured it had to be, so I told James to go get the nurse. She nurse said it was a lot of fluid. I never had it break on it's own. It was weird. Didn't like it so much! It was shortly after that, I told James to put the cell phones both away and get over and start holding my hand, and comforting me! I was done answering peoples calls or texts for a while!

I started getting more contractions coming a lot faster and harder after that. I did okay for the next hour, and then I pretty much broke down. All you women out there who give birth without an epidural, HOW DO YOU DO IT??!! I just couldn't take it anymore. I was balling, so James told the nurse to get the epidural for me. Thank goodness for that epidural. That dr was my new best friend! It's not very fun getting those done. Having to lay still on your side and curl up in a ball while he's shoving this needle in your spine, while having horribly painful contractions, but still, worth it!

So they started getting me ready to push shortly after that. It was a little after 11 am by then. I'm usually ready really quickly after the epidural. I guess I just relax and then I was to a 10 and ready to push. I pushed for about a half hour. I had to stop for a bit in the middle so they could unwrap the cord that was around her neck twice and shoulders also. I delivered Sierra Helen Brookes at 11:40 a.m.!! We were so happy she was finally here! She was 9 lbs. 14 oz. and 19 1/2 inches. The dr said she might have been 10 lbs if she hadn't pooped everywhere when the were cleaning her off before they set her on the scale! Ha ha! Ooops! Everyone had to watch their step after that. She was perfect, and we are overjoyed to have her here. I always cry when they hand them to me for the first time. It really is the BEST feeling in the world. I can't believe what a little miracle she is. All my girls, for that matter!! It's was such a joyful experience. The whole thing. We feel so blessed to have all three of our girls, and we love them so much!

I should also mention that I had a really great nurse in the delivery room this time, which was nice. My dr is always great too, but my number one support is my loving and wonderful James! I could not make it through without him. He was there for me 100 % and makes me feel like I am Superwoman! He's the best and I am so blessed to have him as my husband! Thank you Honey for all your love and support during this time and throughout everything else, as well!

I would say that this was one of my more emotional times giving birth, feeling like we know this is our last one. I just wanted to savor every moment. I was probably one of the harder labors, but definitely the shortest one, by far! I was so happy to have the girls come and visit theirs sister the next morning. They love her and are going to be great big sisters to her.

Here's my little story about bringing Sierra into this world. Some day, I really need to get this blog printed up into a book!

BIG SISTERS!

Logan is such a big helper to calm Sierra down during a diaper change, or while we are in the car. She's also great to hold her for me while I make a bottle. She loves Sierra!

Autumn is our "smith's bag getter". She gets a plastic grocery bag for me to throw the diapers away in. She also loves getting the new diapers for me. She was pretty nervous to touch her or hold her at first, but now she loves her new little baby sister. She definitely seems so grown up to me now. It's weird to not have her as the baby anymore, but she's going to show Sierra, along with Logan, how to grow up, and get things done in this world!

She wanted me to help her hold Sierra the first time. She was pretty nervous to hold such a tiny squirmy little thing, but she did great!

Our 3 sweet girls!! Our family feels complete now, and this picture just brings tears to my eyes. Of course I am overly emotional at this point in my life. We feel so blessed to have these 3 beautiful girls to love and to raise!

Logan Autumn Sierra

Sierra under the lights

Sierra had jaundice so she had to be under these lights in the suitcase for a day and a half. She was 4 days old. It was very hard for me not to hold her. She cried pretty good for the first afternoon, but I guess she finally got used to it. It was hard for me not to cry every time I had to put those creepy glasses over her eyes and stick her in there. James was at scout came for most of the time I had to deal with that, so that was another fun added bonus. We are glad she's all done with the suitcase and blood tests. Now if they would just come pick up the suitcase so I don't have to store it and be responsible for it anymore!